I lie in my bed listening to my 'sleeping songs' on my laptop, just a mix of slows really. I begin to wonder about that boy I'm seeing not like there has been discussion about where we are. I like him yes!!! but its beginning to feel like I'm the only one gradually going into the overliking mode. Yes, where you start to like someone too much, Iwon't use love because I have never been. For all I know he is skyping his girlfriend and me am just jonzing.Why do I keep getting into these situations?, I ask myself. Keep putting myself in the position where its hard for me to ask the 'grand man chaser question'...... where is this going?
Ladies, many of us keep going through this and we kind of form the habit of meeting the same men again and again. We read a lot of self help books that give some unrealistic advice we all know they do not work.I have finally come to a conclusion, we make the same mistakes because we keep looking out for that 'guy' and forget we have a life to live. A friend once asked; choose two out of health, money and love. I picked health and wealth, reason is I'm tired of believing in love jare, my own is it will come when it comes abi. For me I want peace of mind.
Sure your thinking, isn't she in a state right now, oh yes I am. A state of satisfaction, I won't even ask the question not because I don't want him to run but because I can't be bothered no more. I am overliking true but it dies when I want it to. Real talk here, you can control what you feel trust me. If we are on the same page all well and good but if not I still have my money and good health bless God and the love of friends and family most importantly.